Friend, oh friend

Ok. Erm so one fine night, at around maybe 4 am, I got a little inspired to write a few lines. Surprising how the first two lines just came into my head while I was going to bed. Clearly, I was thinking a little too much before sleeping.

It's been quite a long time since I last wrote, more so something that I actually liked. But I'm glad somehow, at 4 am, I managed to put together a couple of stanzas that I thought wasn't all that bad =X

Don't let me hold your hand
I'm afraid of falling in love again
Don't let me touch your skin
I fear my heart will feel like then

Don't let me call your name
I'll hear echos of my very own pain
Don't let me hear you laugh
Your voice alone is mocking me enough

Don't let me chase your shadows
I know I'll end up with much more sorrow
Don't let me see your sly smile
My heart will skip a beat every while

Don't let me see those empty eyes
I'll look at you and want to cry
Don't let me feel your very breath
I'll never want to see you again

Don't let me fall for you again
Don't let me fall for just a friend
I'll fall deep and even harder again
But not for you, my dear friend.

Tadaaa. Fin.


Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

The Angel and Mortal

Hello monkeys who actually do read my blog. Whoever you are. How is your day? I've been so busy I barely know what it's like to just sit around and stone. Or surf the internet for more than 10 hours a day looking up on celebrity gossips (like Lady Gaga being a hermaphrodite) and the latest hawt songs.

Anyway, as one of the activities in Choir, each of us was assigned a mortal and we, as angels, are supposed to take care of our own mortal and give them something special. I wrote some poems to my mortal (hope she actually likes it :S) and while writing for her I had inspirations to write other stuff. Here goes.

The calm I see it's in your eyes
The way you speak an assurance outside
The rain, the thunder you hide inside
Only a masquerade of what you hide inside

Speak to the wind of your troubles, your love
They may carry your secrets up above
Speak to me of your thoughts and words
I just may help you ease the pain and hurt

My mortal you are, the angel I am
I will try my all to be the best I can
But fallen an angel, a man I am
If you are my mortal please comprehend

The calm you see it's in my eyes
The way I speak an assurance outside
The rain, the thunder I hide inside
Only a masquerade of what's on my mind.

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

My Darkness Hour

So...I was feeling very shitty yesterday(3rd August) because I deserve to feel that way. Some mothafurker furked my day. I was furked up the rest of the day. So I just wasted myself. But I got really in the mood and in the zone, so I started writing...with someone particular in mind. Oh dear. I was so much in the zone that I felt completely embolden and completely drowned in it(I hope what I just said made sense). I almost texted the person what I wrote. But I was too Chickyn. Yar. Short one here.

In my hour of darkness I yearn for your warmth
But trouble to you I dare not bring on
So I keep it inside, behind a masquerade I hide
Plaster a smile, pretend everything's alright

In my hour of darkness I yearn for your warmth
The angel of sadness has tore down my door
My heart was melted like never before
I long for your touch oh, so much more.

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

My Blissfool Chaos

My colours have faded into fourteen shades of grey
I lost my conscience along with the time of day
I’ve fallen into oblivion with nothing to grapple
My brain has lost function, ready to tumble

I stood in silence lost in a trance
You stood behind me without a single glance
I beckoned in silence for your warm embrace
You turned to listen but then walked away

My world is tossed into chaos, it slowly crumbled
I am not strong enough to comprehend, I struggled
My world is in disarray, priorities in a jumble
I am crushed and pinned under this burgeoning rubble

I reached out for a hand, for safety, for secure
I found you swimming further away even more
I tried to put forth my foot on a stable ground
But you have left my side without making a sound

I woke up to find my ethereal existence
I came to realise my own insignificance
I am to fight this battle only in solitude
But it was in your eyes that I found my fortitude.

-Kat-

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

Blog Revival

Monkey poo! As my sister Rachie happily pronounced that my blog has died, I, as an inspiring doctor, shall serve my duties of reviving and giving CPR to my blog that's lying on its deathbed.

*hops over to Rachie's blog and found out my sister really has no life posting all that nonsensical stuff(but secretly proud of all the nonsensical things that can actually sprout out of her tiny winy little brainy)*

Ok, I'll keep this post short and sweet. Some inspirations came to me while I was in the loo today...hmm, see inspirations come just like that. Anytime, anywhere. Can't stop them :D

Come to think of it, I was going to the loo quite a number of times today cause I drank alot of water :S

Verse 1:

I twist and turn
My stomach churns
I'm trying to start again
I feel the burn
Is it real love
I don't know where to begin

Bridge:
I can't look into your eyes
When you're holding me tight
The darkness lurks behind me
Slowly devouring me

Chorus:
Can you tell me where I am?
Is this how we will end?
You tried to hold my hand
While I just turned away
I turned away

Verse 2:

Why am I running away?
Away from this field of grey
Why are you pulling me down?
Why should I turn around
And see your face
I see your face...

Verse 3:
I tried to lie
I tried to hide
I build this wall inside
I tear my heart
My frozen heart
This fire will slowly die

Bridge:
I can't look into your eyes
When you're holding me tight
The darkness lurks behind me
Slowly devouring me

Chorus:
Can you tell me where I am?
Is this how we will end?
You tried to hold my hand
While I just turned away
I turned away...

End:

I twist and turn
My stomach churns
Can you please hold my hand?
I feel your warmth
I'm already torn
So maybe I should stay.

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

Journey of the insane mind one one unsound miao into the realms of fantasy and unreal possibilities

Yoyoyoyoyo!

What's up people of the blogsphere? I have been lost for so long...anyway. My CDS tutor, one Mrs. Serena mentioned that the average lifespan of a blog is about 9 months. So I shall prove to nobody, that I ARE A BLOGGER and can sustain the erm, life of my blog for more than 9 months! After that, I'll just...go back to the usual blogless normal life of a cavewoman.

Ehem.

Anyway, as things happened that caused me not to be in the comfort of my own er, place to blog, I shall keep this entry simple, short and probably not readworthy.
I've been inspired in one way or another by incidents happening around me lately and thus was able to use that disturbing nonsense, that ringing in my ear, those annoying thoughts...er. Anyway, I was inspired.

Here goes.

What are we doing I ask you dear?
Why are we suffering because of fear?
Why two souls that makes perfect sense
Have to part on false pretense?

Everyone has the desire to love
Why do we run from each other's love?
Everyone has the desire to be loved
Why can't we spare each other comfort?

Is it wrong to fall so hard, so soon
Is it fair to not heal my heart's wound?
Is it fair two person torment each other
Not knowing that they both actually suffer?

If it is true that love, my love is blind
Then why do we hide our love inside?
If it is true to love is to let go
I'd rather not have to live through tomorrow.

Fine then. I shall return to my reclusive, quiet self the next time you see me. Jump to no conclusions and make no assumptions to not rise any complications. Unless you are unmistaken. Do not question my sanity or inspiration for all this nonsense. Unless...when I'm truly broken :(

Life and rhymes

Well, well, well...whaddya know. Me is here blogging just 1 day before my Biochemistry paper. Awesomeness. I had been really relax throughout the study week. Slacking too much :(

Anyway, that's not the point here.

Weirdly enough, I haven't been writing much lately even though I had plenty of time and LOADS of inspiration...geheeee~

So, today while I was in library, in the silent isolation(while I was "supposed" to be studying), I ("accidentally") picked out a piece of white paper and started scribbling. I have to admit that my writing has gone a little rusty after months of hiatus from writing. I scribbled down a few lines, and thanks to some surge in inspirations, I managed to write a couple of stanzas, or whatever you call it. Tada...

I looked into your eyes but I can't see,
Your thoughts, your feelings, they escaped me,
Your playful laughter and that beautiful smile,
Made me wonder, is this all worthwhile?

I blinded myself with my feelings for you,
Covered my eyes from seeing the truth,
Thoughts of you I used as an escape,
Into my realm of fantasy, there's no mistake.

But your words, your words, they were loud and clear,
I've mistaken your intentions for something more dear,
To stay away from you from now on I will be sure,
To not let myself fall deeper and save my tears.

I had been foolish for creating my own fantasy,
For not facing the cold harsh facts of reality,
You and I were never meant to be,
All my feelings were wasted for nothing.

But I'll keep you near, my friend, my dear,
For these feelings they linger, they stay here,
I shall move on slowly to find another,
Only time will tell if I ever move further.

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After surveying my blog, I realise this is only the second time that I've ever posted my writings. Anyway, I dug through some of my older writings and the first one is a simple, melancholy, sappy song, and the second one is just a poem. Taadaaaarrrkkk:

You gave me love
You gave me hope
You gave me feelings that I can't ignore
You touched my heart
And I fell apart
I just can't love you anymore

The stars have dimmed
I shy away
It's time to think
Where to begin

Chorus 1:
Enough of love
Enough of lies
Enough of false hope that you supplied
Enough of time
Enough of dreams
Enough of everything that you can't tell me

Chorus 2:
Enough of love
Enough of lies
Enough of hurt, enough goodbyes
Enough of time
Enough of dreams
Enough of everything but you can't love me

Bridge:
I've had enough
I'm not that tough
I can't go on
If there's no love

-Repeat chorus 1 & 2-

Chorus 3:
Enough of love
Enough of lies
Enough of pain, enough of cries
Enough of time
Enough of dreams
Enough of hoping there's a happy ending

Enough my love.

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I don't want to play your game no more
I'm sick and tired of being hurt before
I don't want to have to love no more
Only to know there's no love at all.

I've put my trust in you to love
But all I got were lies and hurt
I wanted your love and was too naive
To believe that love would come to me.

I've given up hope, I've given up love
I've given my life just to be hurt
I've suffered enough but I won't learn
I'm still wishing love in return.

Take me away from this cruel place
That offered no love and no grace
Take me away, maybe I'll be okay
Because life is love and I'll love again.

Weeeeeeeeee~~
KAT :)


Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

HISTORICAL DAY + Life today

I can't believe so many things happened in the short span of today, 9th February 2009. WARNING: Another long post that no one will probably read :-/
Looks like I've been bitten by the blogging bug...I are BLOGGER!


Morning...


I woke up late this morning feeling a little lazy to go to school. But since I thought I was going to hand-up my EDevices & CKT mini project, I thought I'll just go to school, test out my circuit and happily hand it up. Unfortunately, things don't always happen as we planned. Stupiak circuit refuses to function, not even wanting to give out any beep at all when it is supposed to. So I ended the lab this morning feeling a little whacked. Just a little. And the lab technician who looks and behaves more like a serial killer didn't helped at all. We were just asking him to get us some components, and he was behaving like we were sentencing him to some labour in hell. Wadda-eff is wrong with him?!



Next...


Mira, Fauzan and I skipped Rudy's E-Maths2 lecture(and so did EVERYONE else) and went to Tampines Mall to buy a cake for Chen Han's belated 20th birthday celebration. We've done this quite a number of times for our classmates' birthday and I think we got more PRO in selecting cakes. We made a quick decision and bought Chocolate Truffles from Polar :D

It was clear when Chen Han arrived at Breadboard and saw the cake that he was truly touched. I could see his eyes redden just a little bit ;)

I am truly glad and proud of my classmates' decision to sort of start a tradition of celebrating everyone's birthday. It is a really fun and exciting thing to do, to make each and everyone of our classmate feel special and appreciated during their birthday. Eventhough it's just a simple cake and simple celebration, I am glad we can do this as a class :)
GO I801!!! We so totally rawkxr! Yeah!


Moving on...


Today I am rather blur. I don't usually lose my things (**no one should argue with me about this :P**). But unfortunately, I lost two things today!!

My toolbox has decided to DISAPPEAR INTO THIN AIR. I usually don't simply leave my things around(unless I'm completely distracted, which er, doesn't happen that much but I'm not justified...). After a series of confusing and distracting events, where I was:

-laughing uncontrollably with Mira(as usual)
-holding numerous objects in my arms
-taking out things from my beg
-helping other people hold some stuff
-handing stuffs in my hand to another person,

I realised that my precious toolbox has mysteriously disappeared from the comfort of my arms, where it is safe and warm. Sadly, my toolbox decided that I had neglected it during that confusing time, where alot of activities were happening within my arms. It felt unimportant, unuseful, unattractive and decided to DISAPPEAR INTO THIN AIR (T-T)



Please, my dear toolbox! Come back to me! I promise to treat you well and make you the most important thing in my life(right now because all my mini project circuit is inside!!!). I promise to take good care of you and not neglect you like I did today! I promise to keep you safe in my arms, away from harm. I promise to always remember where you are and look for you when you disappear! Please, come back to me! I will die without you!! *only because my mini project is inside*

I also lost my 5566 Friendship ring :-s
I had no idea where I placed it. SAD! I really don't know when did I took it off and where I placed it. Sorry guys! I'm really sorry I lost it! But at least I wore it on a daily basis and show it all around...hmmph!


After that. . .


I did a whole lot of walking around today. I walked around Tampines Mall buying cake and landyward for Chen Han. Then I walked around school, attending classes and hunting down my missing toolbox. After school, Mira, Fauzan and I went opposite the school to buy some souvenirs for Sunil to visit him after being discharged from the hospital. Mira and I then attempted to locate the exact bus to take in order to reach Sunil's house. After looping around Tampines for one hour(all within the radius of TP and my block), we finally found the right bus and were able to safely reach Sunil's house with ourselves(and our brain) intact.

Sunil was hospitalized for a week for dengue. It's surprising enough to know that the healthy + energetic Sunil was sick, let alone hospitalized. But I'm glad Mira and I were able to represent our class to visit Sunil at his house :D

He seemed a little weak, a little drowsy, not as hyper as usual, but glad that he's ok and getting better. Can't wait to have Sunil back in school!

Back to the walking topic, I was surprised to find that my soxx has torn! Gaha!! My soxx has holes in them! Holey soxx! Waddarrfff~ Gehee~



I know my shoes aren't the right size and the soxx is some cheapskate soxx but I didn't know one day's walking would completely dig holes in them! *momentarily remembered Alvin Che's "Giant Hole" video*
I seriously need to get the right shoe size and good soxx :-/


Besides that . . .


What else? Ice Queen enjoys torturing people!! Gah!
I saw the sheepish smile on Ice Queen's face when she intentionally tortured people. The smile was one of enjoyment and satisfaction. I think Ice Queen enjoys torturing people from that smile. I smiled myself, obviously my mind has wondered somewhere else...anyway, it's not everyday that I get to see Ice Queen smile. Belive me, oh my, Ice Queen is so cute when she smiles. She ought to smile so much more :)

And Ice Queen, I know you won't be reading this, but, I DO noticed that you've FINALLY changed your wardrobe. I've recently concluded that you only have 2 pants(black and brown) and at most, 4 tops, of which you alternate and mix-and-match them within the week. Glad to see that you've finally added new tops to your wardrobe :D
Today you look extra chic with your tucked in top and pants. I lurve the white top and black pants, you look totally fantastic and very in control. The look enhances your prim and proper, "I'm-in-control", confident and fierce self. Way to go, Ice Queen. Still as icy as ever. Can't wait to see what you'll be wearing tomorrow. We don't have much time left, but I'll try to make use of the remaining time before it's too late.


Lastly...


I would like to announce that today, 9th February 2009, is a HISTORICAL DAY. It is a day of much importance to myself. A day where I let myself be vulnerable, weak, lost, emotional, idiotic, confused, totally unprepared, impromptu, crazy. Everything. Although it made little impact in my life overall, I am glad I passed at least one stage, crossed one line this time, though there are so much more lines I have to cross. It is a day where I learnt to be more self accepting, more open, more trusting, more vulnerable. It is a day towards self acceptance and exposing myself to the ones who mattered most to me. It is a day towards ups and downs, happiness and sorrow, new friendships and ending of old ones. I cannot say that I would feel much more relieved after the incident, or that I could breathe more easily.

I still feel insecured, untrusting, unsure of myself and others. I still feel crushed and suffocating. I still feel messed up and regretful. I still feel sorry and guilty. I am who I am and I am not ready to be who I am. I am living with myself, in my own world where no one has seen another side of me. I am living in a world where I am normal. My journey now, sure to be winding and full of obstacles, is to bring my world, into THIS WORLD.

Gaha...so much of reflections and opinions in my last 2 posts~
Being rather emotional and reflective these few days :D

Last shout out, I LURVE my class I801~!

Rantings of nonsensical shizz in life...

So since I have come back from my blogging hiatus, might as blog about a thing or two.

So life. Life is complicated as it is. But I like to view life as simple. The simple life. Life with no troubles. Life with no drama. Fortunately, that is what exactly life is. Simle. Unfortunately, humans are not simple beings. Humans, who live lives that are too simple, find it boring and soon creates drama. Humans are the ones who make life complicated. Are you complicated?

What I realise in my life's journey is that what you see, might not be what you get. What's on the surface, may not be what it is underneath. People masquerade as someone else at least half of the time, if not all the time. We put on masks to address different situations or different people. We behave differently when we are with friends than when we are with our family members. We behave differently when we are with our grandparents than when we are with our teachers.

So who are you? What are you hiding? Who are you trying to be? Who are you trying NOT to be?

One thing I discovered about myself is that I offer a sincerity. I offer my sincere self to others and hope as much sincerity in return. Unfortunately, I learnt that not everyone offers sincerity in return. People often have hidden agendas behind a beatiful wide smile. The have certain motives, attacking and twisting others in order to achieve their goal, while in the process, bringing others down and hurting their feelings. Do you feel like you're winning? Congratulations to you then. I hope you feel proud.

I am certainly happy and glad that I have found myself friends who are just as sincere as myself and I treasure them and I held them dearly to my heart. They offer me no harm, but true, sincere friendship, just as much as I would return them the same. Living with my naitivity and trusting self in society doesn't do me much good considering the number of people with hidden agendas. I sometimes feel insecure living on my own, fearing of being manipulated in others' mind games. Therefore, I feel guarded to have my friends with me as they offer me a sense of protection and trust. Thank you my honest friends. You SHOULD know who you are ;)

Everyday of living our lives is a day of learning more about ourselves. How we react to different situations, how much of patience can we withstand, how we interact with people, how we manage our emotions. How much do you know about yourself?

I can admit that I don't know myself well enough. Perhaps it is because I am still young and immature and there are so much more that I need to experience in order to understand myself. Or perhaps I am still changing, and not fixed to a certain behaviour or character just yet.

What I can say is, I am still so much more. There are still numerous layers of myself that needs to be peeled away to expose the core, shedding away sheets of protection to reveal who I really am. So who exactly am I? How important am I to you? What am I to you? What do you expect from me?

I might not exactly be a very open person as I still keep alot of my thoughts and feelings to myself. But I am starting to wonder if all this is going to cost me. Am I a shadow that floats through in other people's life? A transparent being, whose mere presence is so that others can spill their hearts to, a listening ear, a blank wall to be painted on, a reliable companion whose sole purpose is so that others don't feely alone, a person to drag around with without having a real use, an empty box that others can fill their opinions in...who am I? What am I?

I am here. I am present. I am now. I am an open book hiding behind a naked mask. I am me. Lost and found. Present and past. Child and adult. Immature and sensitive. Confused and sure. Scared and bold. Sincere and sarcastic. Emotional and cold. True and masquerading. Alive and well. Living and breathing. Laughing and loving. My presence counts. And you'd better agree. *smirks*

I don't know where this post is going or where the main point is. This is just some ranting and observations of my own. My perspective. I'm sorry if you felt like you've wasted 3 minutes of your life reading through that. If you've skipped the whole thing to here, you clearly don't think I'm important. Better not wave to me the next time I see you, cuz I'll be ignoring you. Gaha~

To lighten things up, here are some random photos for your viewing pleasure.

Sleeping King, Chen Han :D

Me & Mirr are the best Tag-team during the JAE at TP ;)

Chillaxing after BIE's captain's ball game(more pics at Mira's blog)

*KNNWTFLOLBBQROFLAMO*

After steaming boat at DawnDawn's house

Here are some interesting rules that TP students should NOT do while in the library...

Do not stare BLANKLY at lecture notes.

Do not STARE blankly into space.

Do not STARE cross-eyed at handphone.

AGAIN, I repeat, do NOT stare blankly into space.

Do not act cute by winking at handphone and making suspicious sign with your hand.

Do not play with handphone.

Do not play with handphone by taking pictures of your friends.

Serious offence!

Do not sleep in library.

And most serious of all offences:
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DO NOT TAKE PICTURE OF YOUR FRIENDS WHILE THEY ARE SLEEPING IN LIBRARY.

Gaaahahhaahahahaahahahhahahaha!!

Finally!! A post(of nonsensical shizzz)!!

Imagine(all the people...*sings*) my excitement when I saw Mr. Tayyz's message that I have been tagged by Alvin Che!! Gaahaa!! Finally, I have something to blog about! Gaha!! I know, some of you guys [*cough* Roys & Ben *coughcough*] had been complaining to me asking me to PLEASE update my blog...then later, I complained to you guys in return that I have no idea what to blog about. Well, enter...NONSENSICAL QUESTIONAIRE the 2nd :D

Three names that your friends call you:
-Kat :)
-Kather (ah, back in the good old days with my good ol' friends :D)
-Katty (copyrighted by Mirra ;] )

Three most important dates in your life..
-Er, my burfday?
-HOLIDAY
-New year cuz I'll have the reason in the world to get new clothes :D

Three thing you've done in the last 33 minutes..
-Watched Gossip Girl season 1...dang, I don't exactly know why am I still watching that lame show :S
-Listened to music on my lappy
-Logged on facebook and my blogger...and then I saw Tay's message saying I have been tagged! :D

Three ways to be happy..
-Spending time with my friends...they guaranteed me laughter :D
-Eating :D Gaahahahahaha! It helps :D
-Buying stuff. It can be groceries, accessories or "unnesscessaries", gahhaah~ It's GUARANTEED happiness

Three of your songs as for now...
Er, I think it should actually say "Three of your FAVOURITE songs as for now" so wth I'm going to my fave songs as of now.
-Leslie Roy - Unbeautiful
-Paramore - Decode
-Usher - Moving mountains [I've been really into this song for quite sometime now and I don't exactly know why :D]

Three of your favourite hobbies
-EATING . . . Weeeeeeee~! *idiotic blissFo0L look*
-Er . . . stoning? *stoned look*
-Singing (usually does duets with Mirrra) *remembers incident at Breadboard whilst singing one of Anuar Zain's song* WAAAAKAKKAKAKAKAAK!!!

Three places you want to go for vacation..
-Estonia
-Alaska, United States of America. I want to see whether I can cross over the border of Alaska into Russia (thanks to Sarah Palin)
-Moon, so that even if I don't reach it, I can fall among the stars...GAHA!

Three favourite cartoon/anime characters..
Alamarrkxx, I don't watch anime can? Cartoon I watch :D
-Spongebob Squarepants + all its cast
-The Fairy Oddparents
-Jimmy Neutron
-can add somemore???

Three favourite malls you usually go...
Waahxx, this is a very sad question. If I'm in Kluang, you all know my answer. If I'm in Singkapoor, then NO ANSWER. CAN!! SATISFIED!! HAIYORK!! APA MACAM SIAAA!! Jole will start saying "Remember, she NEVER been OUT of Tampines!" (-_____-")

Three favourite drinks..
-Water. Seriously. *I rawkx*
-Er. . .sky juice is not bad.
-Air *geeeheeeheeee*

Three favourite colours..
This one is easy. Everyone will probably know my answer as well. Although its not my choice, I've always been associated with black colour...not to be emo here so I shall name my 2 "favouritest" colour! Yay! er.
-COLOURLESS
-COLOURFUL
Yay!

Top three hang outs..
-I like to hang out on top of the trees
-Our "usual place" level 7 of TP library >.<
-In the confinement of 4 walls :(((((((((((

Top three food you love so much..
-SUSHI SUSHI SUSHI(huh? 3 already?)
-Indian food *yummmm*
-Chinese food + Malay food + Italian food + Mexican food + Western food + fast food + dessert (who says I can only love 3 types of food!)

Top three things special to you..
-Life and everything in it :D (I'm just cheating through this whole thing aren't I?)
-Money(cuz it makes the world go round...)
-Relationships(family, friends, acquaintances, teachers, etc. I'm cheating again! Who cares! :D)

Top three attitudes you like..
-straightforward/sincerity
-humble
-kind hearted(especially to animals)

Three things you'll be doing tomorrow..
Harrhhh. . .too bad, I'm just a typical student. Got nothing interesting to do can!
-Take DFund2 labtest
-Attend Chungky & Dr. Raja's lecture...Sial larr!! Tomorrow got Prem tut!
-Attend choir?

Three reasons you answer this survey..
-Nothing to blog about :(((((((((( **hides in blogger's hall of shame**
-Er. . .same as above
-Tagged by Senor Alvin :)

Three people you tagged...
Lemme tag...
-Mr. Tay!
-Rolls Roys!
-BenBen Ben is Ben is BenBen is Ben is Ben is BenBen is. Gaahhaha! :D

Finally got one post after a long hiatus :D

Observations and Keypoh-sation

Brace yourselves, I am about to reveal to you a million-dollar picture that can only be seen by so few. It is a view of high worth and very few people will get the chance to see it. It is a once and only lifetime chance to see such a significant picture and I am very proud to show it to you. Ladies and gentlemen, gentleladies and men, I give you...

THE VIEW OF TP FROM MY WINDOW

Gaaaaaaaahahhahaha~

Well, it IS a million dollar view, I can see TP straight out of my window and it's exactly the centre-front of the school. Who else has a view like that? Who can actually proudly announce that they can wake up every morning, open their window, and see the front of TP directly opposite? Who else can truely say that every time they return to their room and open their window the first thing they spot is TP? Who else can raise their from their desk, out the window and see TP? Who? I DO!

. . . . . .

Dang it. My life here is going to be so boring isn't it? Waking up every morning to the same view of the same school that I'll be attending for the next 2++ years. Great. Just great.


Here's a little something I noticed while looking out my window today(no, I DON'T look out of my window everyday just to see what's going on at TP, it just so happens that 'something' is going on there that is clearly visible -_-). They are putting up new banner on the walls in preparation for the Open House this coming January. Don't know who those people in the banner are, but they sure look happy studying in TP. Really? Do you really become the happy looking people in the banner when you study in TP?


Unfortunately that's never true(I don't know why am I even discussing about this). Today, today, today. I got my E-Maths 2 marks and not so proud, so I frowned. There is no eternal happiness when you study in TP, dear friends, no(I am not too sure what am I blabbering about so I'll end this topic abruptly . . . here).


Speaking of the Open House, if any one of my juniors or if you know of someone who is coming all the way from Kluang to the East of Singkapoor to TP's Open House during January, do let me know. I'll be glad to move you around and show you the what's special about TP(and the non-existant eternal happiness that you'll obtain here).



Another thing I want to keypoh about is a new trend among the boys of this part of the world. Boys, seriously, what's going on? What are you guys trying to prove here? What's the message here? Are you guys sure you're giving out the right signals?

That's right. It's the "manbag" trend. I'm not quite sure if I've made the word up, but I think I have heard of it somewhere...anyway, "manbag" is the men's version of the women's handbag. Seriously! Why are men carrying bags like women! Why!! It's weird...at least to me. It just doesn't suit right. Meterosexuality is definitely kicking in, with more men beauty products in the market, guys really care about how they look nowdays, which is a good thing. But, really, don't push the meterosexuality too far. It's not cute. Not cute at all. Unless you're Hugh Jackman. *wink wink*

Then the guys they have this look. Their wear a tight fitting top, could be body hugging V-Neck tee, or a button down, then they wear this pants which is just at knee length. Then they wear some really nice shoes...I don't have a pic of this look, but ask me, I can't point at any direction in school and I'm pretty sure my fingers will hit on some guy with that look. Anyway, the "gay-ish"(no offense, observations, no discrimination) look is acceptable, but unfortunately it works on some guys and not on others. So don't push it, and guys, try this look at your own risk! May send out wrong signals...I'm just saying.

Man-bag, not for everyone. Seriously, just don't. Unless you're totally adorable and gay. And the the look is totally NOT working on victim #2. FUGLY bag(it kinda looked like he stole his sister's handbag and then decided, "Hey, I could TOTALLY work this, sista!"*snap*), FUGLY dress up, FUGLY! You want a bag? Trash bag would have looked better on you.

Random TV quotes of the week:

"Why do you sound surprised? I love America. Just because I think gay dudes should be allowed to adopt kids and we should all have hybrid cars doesn't mean I don't love America." - Liz Lemon(Tina Fey) on 30 Rock.

Phoebe: How can you let him talk to your crotch like that?
Rachel: He's talking to the baby.
Phoebe: Ohhh! Okay! Okay, 'cause when- when he said "I can't wait to hear your first words", I thought, there's a trick!
-Phoebe and Rachel on Friends.

Ch-ch-cheeeeeeckit Ouuuuuut~

Right.

Let's get to it...School's starting tomorrow, I'm supposed to submit my CDS blog's URL for evaluation, that's done but the blog is completely empty - smart ass like me would choose a topic on politics, then crack my head thinking what am I suppose to write about, brilliant, another BRILLIANT choice, Kat - then I'm supposed to submit a flowchart for the Computer Programming project but I haven't done a single thing yet, so good luck to me. Finally I have the DFund2 soldering project which is about er, 60% percent done. Gah, school. I'm s0o0o0o0o0o looking forward to it. Can't you tell my enthusiasm? (-_____-)

This video has been out for sometime, but I don't know if it's on MTV yet or not(because I have no TV, nor MTV here in Singkapoor - yay -__-"). It's by my favourite idol(if you haven't already know), the awesome-tastic, one and only, Ms(again) Alecia Moore, Pink! Weeee~

Not one to shy from controversy and never afraid to do whatever s**t that she wants to do, this video is a little unconventional so I'm not sure if the full video will be on MTVasia. Pink's the original rockstar, strong vocals, great lyrics, loud fashion and in-your-face attitude. Katy Perry, yeah she's the amateur here. Wait no more, I give you, Sober by Pink. Cheeeeeckit ouuuut.

P!nk "Sober" Music Video



And when you've got nothing else to do, you do this. Does anyone really read this?
Chee Emily tagged me to do this, so I have to do it right? Here goes.

I Wanna Do Something(OMG is that a Britney's song?!)

1. Name the people you tagged. (10)
- Er, if you happen to actually read this, then I tag you, everyone. Or if you have nothing else to blog about. Hmph.

2. Describe yourself in one word.
- Human :)

3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
- I'll pick my nose. Geeheheeh~ Ok, seriously, I'll pick someone who loves me(do you love me? :P). You can love someone with all you heart, but I guess it would be meaningless if that person hates you to the core.

4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
- Gaaahhhahahahhaha~

5. How if people reject your confess face to face?
- I don't know...how? Drown myself in self pity. Then mooove on.

6. God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?
- Come with me to heaven. Gaaahhahaha~

7. What will u say to a person who doesn’t want to believe u?
- Very well then, the truth will show itself. Justice will prevail. GOOD trumps EVIL. Really, I have prove.

8. Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
- I don't need to LEARN, I know *smirk* Unless ofcourse, if I don't like that person then, like the words of some wise old men, "Let it be". Thanks, The Beatles :)

9. Do you have something special with you all the time?
- Yes. Ah, it's definitely something very special and dear to me. Something very important to me. Something that I cannot live everyday without. Without it, my world seems blur, I am aimless and my steps wobbly. I am so thankful for you, you are so important and special to me and I obviously would not go anywhere without you, my SPECTACLES :D

10. Long distance love?
- Is that some kind of special name for a cocktail drink?

11. Best place to cry.
- Best place? How about I name all the WORST places to cry...

12. Who do you love the most?
- Love is for all humanity. And cute fuzzy, furry little animals.

13. Tell us of your dream last night?
- Gaaaaahhahahahhah~ "Last night I dreamt of you, but will dreams ever come true?"

14. Ever hated someone so bad?
- That I want to choke them with my own bare hands until they scream and squeel for mercy while their face turn blue and their veins start popping on the surface of their skin and they gasp so deeply for precious air as the little cells in their body slowly give up and their hearts start beating faster and faster, until pumping blood no longer mattered? Nah, I wouldn't want to dirty my hands like that. Plus, I would be wasting precious energy on such insignificant creature >:)

15. The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
- Seriously Sarah Palin, do you still believe Alaska has borders with Russia?!

16. The last person you had a beer with?
- Beer. Sounds familiar. Does it taste like strawberry?

17. The last person you went to the movies with?
- Weeeee~ That was fun cause Ah Ping kept falling asleep during the movie. Need to slap her more. Tan FoLing, Prethesha and her friend Jolene(not to be confused with JOLE) was also there. Ooohhh popcorn....*zombified eyes*

18. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
- Huh? Fauzan...dang...

19. The last person you hugged?
- Sorry, NOT a touchy-feely person. Except for special cases. Geeeheheh~

20. The last person you yelled at?
- I do alot of yelling. Like every morning. "Ikan, ikan...mari, mari, murah, murah!!!!"

21. In the last week have you kissed someone?
- "I kissed a ___ and I like it..." According to Malaysian radios, Katy Perry kissed something, a chair, a fish, a grandmother, a husband...oh, the possibilities. We just don't know what she kissed. No idea at all. *Roll eyes*

22. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
- Where the hell is the remote control!!! Where!!! I can't change the channel without the REMOTE CONTROL!!! ARrrrggghhhHH!!

23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
- I wish I have more brains...so I can give some to Sarah Palin.

24. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
- I'll visit Oprah so she can bring me to MORE places :D

25. What you hate the most?
- SPIDERS!!! They are EVERYWHERE!!! I'm fine with them as long as our live don't interfere with each other. They better not cross over to my territory, or THEY'LL BE SORRY! Or mostly, they'll just be DEAD >:)

26. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
- On second thought, I wouldn't want to give up more brains for Sarah Palin. It'll just be a waste...

27. Five facts About Me:
- I talk, eat, sleep, breathe and live :)

28. Five things that scare me:
- Sarah Palin(she's more of a person than thing, but who cares)
- Spiders(wanna scare me? Try it)
- Myself(I surprise myself everyday...not really)
- Stinky people(again, I could only think of people...I'll write a THING next)
- High places(it's a THING right?)

29. Two Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
- I know this..."Sober" by Pink cuz I just posted it and er...Run by Leona Lewis.

30. Five Things I treasure in my life:
- Oprah(again she's NOT a thing, but who cares!), love, humanity, humility and GOD.

Another day in life as seen through my eyes.

Hmmmppppppphhhhhhh...

December 26th, another day spent in TP. Today we had the workshop thingy that we are supposed to attend. Basically, it's "supposed" to be an introduction into soldering, we were "supposed" to do some basic soldering that will help us better understand the next subject, Medical Devices. Fortunately, we started doing some soldering work for DFund 2 already so we don't need to cover so much of the basics stuff.

One of the practices is to solder ANYHOW and this is what I did :)


For the real circuitry, initially I had some problems with my connection. But much thanks to Dr. Ravi who was so helpful, he helped me identified my ONE wrong connection. All I had to do was to desolder it and re-solder again. Weeee~ Thank God it worked well and I was able to finish rather quick.

The rest of the day, I waited for Mirrra cuz she had some problems with her circuit. We were the last to leave and we walked happily with Dr. Ravi out of engine school. Then he proceeded to follow us out of the school...and after sending Mirrra off(she was rushing to see her Mirafie ;P), Dr. Ravi said he wanted to "kidnap" me for the day. Somehow, these few days I had a number of people saying that to me...didn't know I have 'high kidnap-able qualities'.

Back to Dr. Ravi, he just whisked me off for another tea + makan session with him. Then he started talking about everything under the sun. One thing we mentioned was that he admires amazing figures, one example Jesus Christ. He says Jesus was a wonderful man and he admired that he sacrificed for the people. He also said Jesus never dies :)

It's always nice to meet people who respects and take the effort to understands about another's religion, made me feel ashamed of not appreciating Christ's sacrifice when I'm a christian myself.

He then said that no one is holy except God, not even priests. And he said one bunch of stuff I can't remember right now. The point is, Dr. Ravi is er, very unique person. The way he sees life is rather different from the normal person. He has his own way of interpreting life and sometimes it's a little unconventional. And he likes to talk in examples, sometimes very deep, kinda philosophical stuffs(which gave me headache to understand some :-s, but it's interesting to listen anyway). If you like meeting different people, talking to people with different views and have alot of patience to listen to his views and stories, have a chat with Dr. Ravi. Huh.

Ok. Finish. I didn't get enough sleep last night and feel like crap now :-S

Quick shoutout to Jole who arrived back safely to the land of Singkapoor from Obama-land. Jole's in the pink of health :D

Now I know what Ah Ping bought for me the other day from Disney Land Tokyo ("p), thanks to Jole. The metal piece thingy...Thanks Ah Ping!! Gahaahha...I know I was being "true friend" when I ask-3-ask-4(in chinese), hope I didn't pissed you off, but you know I greatly appreciate whatever you gave and the most precious gift from would, ofcourse, be our FRIENDSHIP :D :D *grins from mouth to mouth* *high-5 Ah Ping!!**

So, this Christmas Season, let me be thankful to God, not for the meagre Christmas gift that I've received(thanks Momma for the Miao0o0o bag, thanks Rachie for the Ipanema, thanks Sammie for letting me call you all sorts of name like how you call me >:( You owe me Prosperity Burger!!!) but for all the wonderful people I've met throughout my insignificant presence on Earth and all the relationships that I've shared with all these people including all old and new friends, fellow Girl Guides & Scouts, KTSL contestants, teachers, neighbours, bunch of ladies on the Internet, everyone, EVERYONE. I am THANKFUL :)

Recession = Money + Money + Money + Family

I are back in Singkapoor again today(25th DECEMBER)

Seems like they like to cut short our holidays(i.e. CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS) short. There's this Workshop that I have to attend tomorrow(26th DECEMBER) and I have absolutely no idea what are we suppose to do or what is the purpose of it. Dang it, I could have been at home eating popcorn.

Anyway...

Hair cut + Rebonding : RM 160
Dress : RM 53
Fruitcake : RM 7
Cheese cake : RM 28
Lunch : RM 4
Dinner : RM 5
Celebrating Christmas with my family :

Priceless.

Geeky me.

Rachie

Me & one disgustingly annoying brother



Me & Rachie


Attack of the mata sepet clan



Pig face in the background



WTH?!!?

Er...

Disgusting...

Wishing all friends and family members, near or far, a Merry Christmas

and may God shower His blessings on all of us

&

Happy New Year,

let's welcome the year 2009 with open arms

and may the new year bring new hopes, new insipirations, new aspirations, new memories, new friendships and continuation of old relationships :D

Quote of the day:

"Black is the new President, bitch!"

- Tracy Morgan, Saturday Night Live.

Goodbye Bush, rest well.

Weee~ Term Test's over, Holiday's Here~!

Weee~ indeed :D


I'm done with term test and now happily residing at home for the holidays. Dang, I'm getting real lazy during the holidays...I'm so lazy to even blog...I've got loads of things I want to blog about, the will is strong but the body is just plain lazy ("p)


Term test was alright. I was such an angel(weeee~) in that I kept my laptop away from my sight so that I won't be distracted by the internet! But ofcourse, internet's not the only thing that can distract me...all in all, I think I did ok for the test, some mistakes here and there, but hopefully I can still survive. I did alot of studying(er...yeah, if you believe me :-X) with Jole, Lynnette, Jason-Watson and Rolls Royston. We studied(and ate, and talked and laughed courtesy of Lynnette) after each paper ended in school and it was pretty fun :)

Food for thought...Gehee~midnight snake while mugging for Biochem paper...not bad, for some soy bean food.

Er, don't know what she was doing, but from that wacky grin, you know my funny friend Lynette is not very stable, mentally :P

One of the days we even met online and played this viwawa thing. Studying konon! Gahah~~

Friday...

After our last Biochem paper, Jole asked me, Mira, Netss, Jason and Rolls Roys to do soldering in school, the reason being Jole's going away to OBAMA-LAND during the whole of the term break and she won't have time to do her soldering. So we camped in iT school and burnt away! :D

Geeheee...this is a sample piece, but I am working on my own ok! All I need to do is to just create an exact copy of the thing. Er, easier said than done.

Mira, Rolls Roys and Jason "hard at work" soldering...note the seriousness in their faces, otherwise not seen on them in their everyday lives.

Later...

Chiong back to home, KLUANG :D

On me way back to Johor, I passed by the new customs building, Iskandar something(hence everything else shall be named after the Sultan, buildings, spoon, chair, bed, car, pet-er, hope I won't get into trouble for saying that[read: ISA]). It's pretty impressive(compared to the old building *roll eyes* which is a piece of CRAP!), looks very high-tech and all, clean, ofcourse new, grey...which kinda makes me feel like they are creating something similar to Singapore's custom because of all the grey hues. One thing I do like about Malaysia is that they like to put simple touches to make it feel very, er, Malaysian-ish. They have incorporated black and white pictures of indigenous people from Sabah and Sarawak, you know a Iban warrior holding a shield kinda pics. Very nice, feels very home-y, its always nice to feel that human-touch when in a cold, big, corporate grey building. Nice work, you Johor people. I just hope its maintained nicely. If you do happen to cross the sea into Singapore through Johor Customs(or vice-versa), do pay attention to the little details :)

Next...

It's always nice to come home and meet up with my fellow Kluang-ians and all my friends(I :hearts: all ya'll!). Ah, the comfort of home, it gets sweeter since most of us had gone our separate ways after Form 5, and now we get to meet up and catch up with one another.

In the pics: Chee Emily, Tan FoLing, LyLyana and Ten Ten Tenssss and me at Old Town, Kluang :)

PS: Thanks lots and lots of lurve for my high flying friends(literally) Ah Ping(konnichiwa) and Shying(er, Sabah mari) for all your lovesss, especially Ah Ping for being host. All the best to Shying in furthuring your studies and may our, er, 5566 continue on aik!! Also equal lots of lurves for FoLing and Lying for all the laughter :D

Friendship last forever! We just decided to put a ring to it! Guess which is me?

To end this post, I shall post Explode by Uh Huh Her again. I posted their song in one of my earlier post, but I liked their song so much I'm going to post it again but this time with their official video. Do check it out, it's an awesome song.