Friend, oh friend

Ok. Erm so one fine night, at around maybe 4 am, I got a little inspired to write a few lines. Surprising how the first two lines just came into my head while I was going to bed. Clearly, I was thinking a little too much before sleeping.

It's been quite a long time since I last wrote, more so something that I actually liked. But I'm glad somehow, at 4 am, I managed to put together a couple of stanzas that I thought wasn't all that bad =X

Don't let me hold your hand
I'm afraid of falling in love again
Don't let me touch your skin
I fear my heart will feel like then

Don't let me call your name
I'll hear echos of my very own pain
Don't let me hear you laugh
Your voice alone is mocking me enough

Don't let me chase your shadows
I know I'll end up with much more sorrow
Don't let me see your sly smile
My heart will skip a beat every while

Don't let me see those empty eyes
I'll look at you and want to cry
Don't let me feel your very breath
I'll never want to see you again

Don't let me fall for you again
Don't let me fall for just a friend
I'll fall deep and even harder again
But not for you, my dear friend.

Tadaaa. Fin.


Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

The Angel and Mortal

Hello monkeys who actually do read my blog. Whoever you are. How is your day? I've been so busy I barely know what it's like to just sit around and stone. Or surf the internet for more than 10 hours a day looking up on celebrity gossips (like Lady Gaga being a hermaphrodite) and the latest hawt songs.

Anyway, as one of the activities in Choir, each of us was assigned a mortal and we, as angels, are supposed to take care of our own mortal and give them something special. I wrote some poems to my mortal (hope she actually likes it :S) and while writing for her I had inspirations to write other stuff. Here goes.

The calm I see it's in your eyes
The way you speak an assurance outside
The rain, the thunder you hide inside
Only a masquerade of what you hide inside

Speak to the wind of your troubles, your love
They may carry your secrets up above
Speak to me of your thoughts and words
I just may help you ease the pain and hurt

My mortal you are, the angel I am
I will try my all to be the best I can
But fallen an angel, a man I am
If you are my mortal please comprehend

The calm you see it's in my eyes
The way I speak an assurance outside
The rain, the thunder I hide inside
Only a masquerade of what's on my mind.

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

My Darkness Hour

So...I was feeling very shitty yesterday(3rd August) because I deserve to feel that way. Some mothafurker furked my day. I was furked up the rest of the day. So I just wasted myself. But I got really in the mood and in the zone, so I started writing...with someone particular in mind. Oh dear. I was so much in the zone that I felt completely embolden and completely drowned in it(I hope what I just said made sense). I almost texted the person what I wrote. But I was too Chickyn. Yar. Short one here.

In my hour of darkness I yearn for your warmth
But trouble to you I dare not bring on
So I keep it inside, behind a masquerade I hide
Plaster a smile, pretend everything's alright

In my hour of darkness I yearn for your warmth
The angel of sadness has tore down my door
My heart was melted like never before
I long for your touch oh, so much more.

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

My Blissfool Chaos

My colours have faded into fourteen shades of grey
I lost my conscience along with the time of day
I’ve fallen into oblivion with nothing to grapple
My brain has lost function, ready to tumble

I stood in silence lost in a trance
You stood behind me without a single glance
I beckoned in silence for your warm embrace
You turned to listen but then walked away

My world is tossed into chaos, it slowly crumbled
I am not strong enough to comprehend, I struggled
My world is in disarray, priorities in a jumble
I am crushed and pinned under this burgeoning rubble

I reached out for a hand, for safety, for secure
I found you swimming further away even more
I tried to put forth my foot on a stable ground
But you have left my side without making a sound

I woke up to find my ethereal existence
I came to realise my own insignificance
I am to fight this battle only in solitude
But it was in your eyes that I found my fortitude.

-Kat-

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

Blog Revival

Monkey poo! As my sister Rachie happily pronounced that my blog has died, I, as an inspiring doctor, shall serve my duties of reviving and giving CPR to my blog that's lying on its deathbed.

*hops over to Rachie's blog and found out my sister really has no life posting all that nonsensical stuff(but secretly proud of all the nonsensical things that can actually sprout out of her tiny winy little brainy)*

Ok, I'll keep this post short and sweet. Some inspirations came to me while I was in the loo today...hmm, see inspirations come just like that. Anytime, anywhere. Can't stop them :D

Come to think of it, I was going to the loo quite a number of times today cause I drank alot of water :S

Verse 1:

I twist and turn
My stomach churns
I'm trying to start again
I feel the burn
Is it real love
I don't know where to begin

Bridge:
I can't look into your eyes
When you're holding me tight
The darkness lurks behind me
Slowly devouring me

Chorus:
Can you tell me where I am?
Is this how we will end?
You tried to hold my hand
While I just turned away
I turned away

Verse 2:

Why am I running away?
Away from this field of grey
Why are you pulling me down?
Why should I turn around
And see your face
I see your face...

Verse 3:
I tried to lie
I tried to hide
I build this wall inside
I tear my heart
My frozen heart
This fire will slowly die

Bridge:
I can't look into your eyes
When you're holding me tight
The darkness lurks behind me
Slowly devouring me

Chorus:
Can you tell me where I am?
Is this how we will end?
You tried to hold my hand
While I just turned away
I turned away...

End:

I twist and turn
My stomach churns
Can you please hold my hand?
I feel your warmth
I'm already torn
So maybe I should stay.

Life is [insert favourite word of the day].

Journey of the insane mind one one unsound miao into the realms of fantasy and unreal possibilities

Yoyoyoyoyo!

What's up people of the blogsphere? I have been lost for so long...anyway. My CDS tutor, one Mrs. Serena mentioned that the average lifespan of a blog is about 9 months. So I shall prove to nobody, that I ARE A BLOGGER and can sustain the erm, life of my blog for more than 9 months! After that, I'll just...go back to the usual blogless normal life of a cavewoman.

Ehem.

Anyway, as things happened that caused me not to be in the comfort of my own er, place to blog, I shall keep this entry simple, short and probably not readworthy.
I've been inspired in one way or another by incidents happening around me lately and thus was able to use that disturbing nonsense, that ringing in my ear, those annoying thoughts...er. Anyway, I was inspired.

Here goes.

What are we doing I ask you dear?
Why are we suffering because of fear?
Why two souls that makes perfect sense
Have to part on false pretense?

Everyone has the desire to love
Why do we run from each other's love?
Everyone has the desire to be loved
Why can't we spare each other comfort?

Is it wrong to fall so hard, so soon
Is it fair to not heal my heart's wound?
Is it fair two person torment each other
Not knowing that they both actually suffer?

If it is true that love, my love is blind
Then why do we hide our love inside?
If it is true to love is to let go
I'd rather not have to live through tomorrow.

Fine then. I shall return to my reclusive, quiet self the next time you see me. Jump to no conclusions and make no assumptions to not rise any complications. Unless you are unmistaken. Do not question my sanity or inspiration for all this nonsense. Unless...when I'm truly broken :(

Life and rhymes

Well, well, well...whaddya know. Me is here blogging just 1 day before my Biochemistry paper. Awesomeness. I had been really relax throughout the study week. Slacking too much :(

Anyway, that's not the point here.

Weirdly enough, I haven't been writing much lately even though I had plenty of time and LOADS of inspiration...geheeee~

So, today while I was in library, in the silent isolation(while I was "supposed" to be studying), I ("accidentally") picked out a piece of white paper and started scribbling. I have to admit that my writing has gone a little rusty after months of hiatus from writing. I scribbled down a few lines, and thanks to some surge in inspirations, I managed to write a couple of stanzas, or whatever you call it. Tada...

I looked into your eyes but I can't see,
Your thoughts, your feelings, they escaped me,
Your playful laughter and that beautiful smile,
Made me wonder, is this all worthwhile?

I blinded myself with my feelings for you,
Covered my eyes from seeing the truth,
Thoughts of you I used as an escape,
Into my realm of fantasy, there's no mistake.

But your words, your words, they were loud and clear,
I've mistaken your intentions for something more dear,
To stay away from you from now on I will be sure,
To not let myself fall deeper and save my tears.

I had been foolish for creating my own fantasy,
For not facing the cold harsh facts of reality,
You and I were never meant to be,
All my feelings were wasted for nothing.

But I'll keep you near, my friend, my dear,
For these feelings they linger, they stay here,
I shall move on slowly to find another,
Only time will tell if I ever move further.

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After surveying my blog, I realise this is only the second time that I've ever posted my writings. Anyway, I dug through some of my older writings and the first one is a simple, melancholy, sappy song, and the second one is just a poem. Taadaaaarrrkkk:

You gave me love
You gave me hope
You gave me feelings that I can't ignore
You touched my heart
And I fell apart
I just can't love you anymore

The stars have dimmed
I shy away
It's time to think
Where to begin

Chorus 1:
Enough of love
Enough of lies
Enough of false hope that you supplied
Enough of time
Enough of dreams
Enough of everything that you can't tell me

Chorus 2:
Enough of love
Enough of lies
Enough of hurt, enough goodbyes
Enough of time
Enough of dreams
Enough of everything but you can't love me

Bridge:
I've had enough
I'm not that tough
I can't go on
If there's no love

-Repeat chorus 1 & 2-

Chorus 3:
Enough of love
Enough of lies
Enough of pain, enough of cries
Enough of time
Enough of dreams
Enough of hoping there's a happy ending

Enough my love.

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I don't want to play your game no more
I'm sick and tired of being hurt before
I don't want to have to love no more
Only to know there's no love at all.

I've put my trust in you to love
But all I got were lies and hurt
I wanted your love and was too naive
To believe that love would come to me.

I've given up hope, I've given up love
I've given my life just to be hurt
I've suffered enough but I won't learn
I'm still wishing love in return.

Take me away from this cruel place
That offered no love and no grace
Take me away, maybe I'll be okay
Because life is love and I'll love again.

Weeeeeeeeee~~
KAT :)


Life is [insert favourite word of the day].